Thursday, March 30, 2006

"There is only one teacher."




“A student when fully trained will be like his master.” Who is training me? Do I like what I see? Am I happy with what I will come out like? What if I (we) don’t see anyone where I feel God may be calling me (us)? Who do I (we) look up to? How will I avoid being beaten up by institutions, and my creativity being squashed by uniformity? Is faithfulness static? What does faithfulness look like? Like it did in 100 AD, or 400 AD, or 1700 AD, or the 1990’s? Could faithfulness to what the Spirit is doing look slightly different in the near future than anything we have ever seen? If not – which phase of the ever-changing history of the Church do we need to freeze-frame and imitate?

Lord, guide us. We are lost, and we know it. We are looking to you for direction. How do we hold the arts and the academy together? So they have to be antithetical? Why do we have to choose between being theorists and practitioners? Jesus, please provide a third way.

Sunday, March 19, 2006

Reflections on The Season...

This lenten season has been more meaningul for me than in past years. I thinkit mostly has to do with the two congerations I am a part of here in KC. They follow the Church calender closely, and have done things in the liturgy ech week that remind us of the seriousness of the season. Fasting, silence, less "allelua's", etc.

This has really made me consider the sinfullness of my own life. I have gone through phases of my life in which I have felt more inclined to selfishness, lust, power (maybe as a teen it might have been called popularity) and the other fruits of sin. At other poins I have felt the transformation of the Spirit in my inner habituations and dispositions, and might say my experience was consonate with what John Wesley talked about in terms of "holiness".

"Is it possible for me to be sinless as an individual?"

I must respond to this as question, "NO! For you are not an individual." I am connected with others. I am not an individual, ex nihilo. How could I ever wash my hands of society, and claim I am separate, and redeemed by God to the extent of "Christian Perfection"? For that is what I would need to do. I would have to separate myself fromthe world, to be sinless.

I am so connected to others, and their sin. Do I buy clothes made in sweat shops? Do I buy food grown/picked by immigrents not recieving just wages? Do I abuse creation by consuming more than my share, and by causing massive amounts of toxic waste, gas fumes and cover God's creation with refuse? Do I aid my neighbors in need, around the world? Do I protect the innocent? Do I share the gifts I am given freely? ( I invite the reader to add questions)...

Things get complicated when others figure into the equation. Am I free of guilt? Do I become Amish so I am sure to not oppress others economically and abuse creation?

You can says, "Mr Wesley claimed that the holy are those with pure intentions, they will nothing but love of God, and love of neighbor". To that I say, "Yes, but how can I say I truly intend to do the good I know I ought?"

Wesley talked of "sins of omission" - not doing what we are responsible for as disciples. How do I know what I am responsible for? Do I intend to do all I can for others? What if I mistakenly think I am responsible for a certain group of neighbors in some other country, and inaiding them do not honor my father and mother, or I neglect my wife and kids, or they suffer? WHat if I am attempging to be a faithful husband and father, and it feels like I am neglecting the world around me?

Ah, the complexity of the situation. May I be pure of intention? Am I perpretuating a myth by thinking I might be free from sin? Am I ever free from the sins of others?